Over Whelmed by God

I was just recently looking through some of my old posts on facebook and saw one that I put that really stuck out, feeling completely overwhelmed by God. I can't even begin to put into words the feeling. I had this uncontainable joy, I couldn't stop smiling basically all the time, and every time I thought of something it lead me to thinking about God and His goodness. I was on a high for Jesus and it was so incredible I seriously just can't get over the feeling. I love how God uses such things in our lives to point to Him in every possible way.

This past week has been rough... I don't really know why... well actually I probably do. I haven't been in the word as much, focused as much, striving as much, pushing as much..... It has been all about me this past week not Christ. Boy I love when God shows you over and over just how selfish you really are and how much I really do need Him CONSTANTLY!

I have just been dwelling on or thinking on this the past couple days, just how much I want that feeling back. Being completely overwhelmed by God. Not being able to wipe the smile off my face. I want that irreplaceable joy back in my life. I miss feeling totally dependent on God. I am realizing so very slowly that I rely a lot on myself.... way to much and this has to contribute to what is bringing me down. I love seeing God work in my life... it is ridiculous how many times He needs to remind that it is all about Him and not me but I sure am thankful for His patience.

I was reminded just tonight of just how much He has done for us while reading through a Bible Study that I am doing. It took me all across the scriptures through Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Isaiah, Luke, I Corinthians, Ephesians, and Colossians. It is so amazing to see God's provisions for us and His love displayed so plainly yet so easy to miss. I am so thankful for His word and His diligence He had when writing His word. It is a beautiful picture of who God really is... everything that He really is. Thank You God, I am simply blown away that you would even consider me, let alone want to use me.